Loganthinks

there's ben lots of waiting

and waiting

and bullshit

and incompletion

and adding of new things to do

and nothing

except nothing

seems to be getting done around here. I use the passive tense to avoid responsibility.

at least
I'm going home soon...
but i fear i'm moving just to keep moving

as dave would say

the places i fear the most
are here.
and having to make it, now much more alone than before,
is the new way of things.

but my place is nice.

and my dog is nice.

and if they ever fix my fucking kitchen i cook some tasty spaghettios.

all is not lost
just suburbanized
and surrounded by assholes
and long drives
and new reasons for apathy and inertia.

i'm gonna switch away from this blog format soon i thnik - after fighting with jenn about it for the umpteenth time, it's better really to not be writing for anyone to read - beacuse i never want to hear someone tell me a post sucked again

because fuck that

i don't write them with you in mind


or with much of anything in mind

but it's writing.
and that's realted to work.
which i need to do more of - not like teaching or waiting tables
working
actually writing - it wont impress anyone when they ask "is this all you do with your summer", but it's probably far past time to stop living to impress people too

just can't be in limbo forever kids

not forever